a letter sent to future Mr.Liang

dear myself,i cordially hope you would be the very person that i want myself to be.now i kind of do bad at english,especially oral english and listening.I could stand any difficulties ifi get what i want,fluent out-spoken english and perfect retelling english.i-who need to go through more thorns,need to see more rainbows-sincerely want to be more brave and more self-knowledged,i really would like to chat with foreign professor that is native english speaker.ok,idon't need more words,good bye and good luck.hope you can be my ideal person.