tough time and I hope you have passed it

　　Dear FutureMe,

　　I woke up this morning realized today is the due date for my social security payment and I checked my bank&alipay account and there was nothing there. I was frightened into cold sweat.

　　This has been rather a tough time for me recently. Start-up failed and my savings run out. I could not pick up the mood to go back to work as an employee. There is so much to learn from the failure and so much to catch-up with the missing knowledge that I donot possess for acting as a boss nor a professional. Sometimes I am panic because I donot know which direction I should step forward and what is waiting for me there ahead.

　　I write to you, the future me, to let you know the situation of me right now today. I suppose you will receive my email in a year, I hope at that time you have already step out of this awkward situation and find something you love (or at least not hate) to do.

　　Love you,

　　Cicily from 2018.10.18